I think I have them now. But I'm having trouble with your use of the word "feminist" - she's right in line with the establishment. When she is "useless" - in other words, no longer desireable, or fecund, or rich - she would rather be destroyed rather than waste the resources taking care of an old, ugly, high-maintenance female husk. That's the epitome of sexist. Having to depend on anyone to take care of her terrifies her, because in her heart she knows she can't. Is this a common view? Isn't NHS there for the elderly? Why then would anyone feel trapped into taking care of them if they didn't want to?